Searching

Search

In Search of light wandered till dusk

In Search of life wandered till death

In Search of you looked at them

In Search of me looked at you

Feeling Pain

Feeling Pain

As I live throughout the night to the day,

I wonder why you treated me this way,
Why you made me cry the tears I’ve cried,

And I still don’t understand the reasons why,
The reasons, obviously,

Are very bad,
Because of those tears,

I’ve gotten very mad,

Mad at the person I see in the mirror now,
Truthfully,

I don’t even know how,
But inside my head I feel so insane,

Deadly thoughts are running through my brain,
True,

My emotions may seem very empty,

It’s because of all this pain and misery,
That you’ve caused me,

Acting so mediocre,

Now you’re probably wondering what I’m going to say,
Well, I’m not going to tell you,

You know what I should do,
I should just make us over,

But that I won’t do,
I’ll just make you feel the pain that I was put through.

Broken Love

Broken Love
Infect me with your cancer,
Cure me with your disease.
Rip apart my heart and bleed yourself into me.
Steal away my will,
Tear apart my dreams.
Stitch me up with a smile and pull apart my seams.
Break all my ambitions,
Tatter up my heart.
Steal all my desires and shatter my world apart.
Commit me to your prison,
Label me with a number.
Stab me with the needle and give an endless slumber.
Burn away all my flesh,
Drain my blood to the floor.
Kill me with the love that I don’t want anymore.

Longing For Home

Longing For Home

Poor and lonely,

That I am.

Homesick for birthplace,

Family and friends.

Children I have,

And love them I can.

But still I am longing for family and friends.

People I see can stand and cheer.

A smile on their faces,

But their hearts are not clear.

I have endured hardships aplenty,

Burdened with many a stone.

But still I long for my birthplace,

My home.

I Wish You Could Understand

 I Wish You Could Understand

I wish you could understand that my feelings for you are true. 

I wish you could understand how the way you treat me hurts so deep. 

How when you push me away and make me feel as if I don’t matter.

I wish you could understand that despite all your faults 

That I will always love you. 

I wish you could understand and see how much you truly mean to me. 

But until you learn to open your heart and let me in fully I guess you’ll just not understand.

Heart Hurts

Heart Hurts

I`ve suffered too much

My heart hurts so bad

So many sacrifices

Too many tears

Just tell me one thing

That you love me

Thats all I ask

Nothing else

I`ve never had a love

I`ve never had a love

I`m worried I won`t ever

You seem too perfect for me

You were my first love

Sweet silence is the thing for me

Anything you like,

I like too I guess you can say I`m obsessed

But my heart hurts because of you

Numbers

They tell me one is dangerous.

They tell me two is Flirty.

They tell me three holds awkwardness.

They tell me four is dirty.

They tell me five is crowded,

Of these things I’m not sure…

To me they are just numbers,

And nothing any more.

Kitten

Kitten
You silently move through the house
Like a tiger in the jungle
So slender and so elegant
even though you’re just a mongrel
You jump and play and bring us joy
All the night and day
We’re so happy to have you here
And hope that you will stay

Thoughts and Dreams

Thoughts and Dreams

You are gone and I know loneliness.

Emptiness overwhelms my heart and soul,

Forcing my mind to wander thru a crossword

Puzzle of thoughts and dreams.

Scarcely discernible one from the other.

A teardrops on my cheek

. A message of regret

For happiness lost long ago.

A smile curved my lips as remembrances

Of another time flit thru my mind.

The stars beckon to me

With friendly fingers of light,

Gas lamps in the windows of heaven

A welcome sight!

I will go to them.

I will be happy.

I will know loneliness no more.

Lost Bye

Lost By
Without your smile 

Without your laughter 

It seems I’am at a lost. 

Years go by, and nothings the same 

The cost of losing you is too high 

If only their were someone to blame. 

I know I will be with you one day again 

But until then what will I do I’am at a lost. 

I depend on our memories to get me through 

I look at pictures of you and hear your laugh 

And still I’am at a lost. 

Until we are reunited 

Nothing is as good as it could be 

Without you I’am lost.