I can feel it all the signs are there I don’t sleep well I feel sad all the time and now I am also not feeling well ……………………………
I have fallen into the hole of depression
I have tried to avoid it but nothing seems to help not really sure who I can talk to about the way I am feeling ………………………………………………………..
So I’ll begin at the beginning this all started on the 17th of the month of June we went to the beach and I was standing in the waves as they crashed into shore standing there.
I was thinking depression is like the waves it crashes up over you and then tries to pull you down in the undertow ,
Depression is the saddest and loneliest illness it has so many symptoms that start out as small nothing .
Aching joints sore bones disturbed sleep then the depression gets worse the next day
I got horrible news a good friend passed away and left me in charge of everything without telling me now
I have people I don’t even know mad at me.
I have to deal with all her stuff and the drama that comes with it I am overwhelmed and the one place I use to look forward to going to every week has became a place that
I am starting to dislike all because of one person she is being mean to me because I stood up to her .
I feel like I am in quicksand the more
I struggle the faster I sink
I feel alone and have started crying in secret ……………………
I have been skipping meals just not hunger
And even when I am hunger food doesn’t seem to taste good my depression medication has stopped working
I just want to curl up into a tiny ball and cry