Sometimes

Sometimes, 
ALLAH breaks our spirit to save our soul.. 

Sometimes, 
ALLAH breaks our heart to make us whole..

Sometimes, 
ALLAH sends us pain so we can be stronger..

Sometimes, 
ALLAH sends us failure so we can be humble.. 

Sometimes, 
ALLAH sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves..

Sometimes, 
ALLAH takes 'something' 
Away from us so we can learn the value of 'everything' we have.. 

Trust ALLAH. 
Love ALLAH. 
Whatever He does, 
Is always the Best for us.. 
ALHAMDULILLAH

Betrayal

She told me she loved me, she told me 
she cared. 
She promised to help me, she said she’d always be around. 
I guess she’s a liar, she’s not here anymore. 
I hardly ever see her,she barely comes back. 
It used to hurt and it still does. 
But I’ve learned to ignore it, I shut that pain out. 
She cheated me a childhood, she stole from me my normal life. 
She told me a thousand lies, left me confused by hypocracy. 
I can never forgive her, my mother the traitor.

Muslim Women

I am a Muslim woman
Feel free to ask me why
When I walk
I walk with dignity
When I speak
I do not lie

I am a Muslim woman
Not all of me you’ll see
But what you should appreciate
Is that the choice I make is free

I’m not plagued with depression
I’m neither cheated nor abused
I don’t envy other women
And I’m certainly not confused

Note, I speak perfect English
I’m majoring in Linguistics
So you need not speak slowly

I run my own small business
Every cent I earn is mine
I drive my Chevy to school & work
And no, that’s not a crime!

You often stare as I walk by
You don’t understand my veil
But peace and power I have found
As I am equal to any male!

I am a Muslim woman
So please don’t pity me
For God has guided me to truth
And now I’m finally free! 

 

Darkness, All Consuming

Alone again in this 
Light, I see the peril 
Of the darkness. 
I watch it and it me. 
As it infects and destroys 
All that I see, I 
Wonder why I just stand 
Here, all by myself, 
With no one to help me. 
It’s only a matter of 
Waiting now. This all consuming 
Dark, its everblooming light, 
All just for me and my agony to 
Share and I make 
One last silent cry as I too am concealed.

A Well That Will Never Run Dry

The tears I cry are sad 
And lonely tears, filled with 
Heartbreaking pain and bitter fears 
Of what may not come to be. 
I stare out into the midnight 
Blue darkness that engulfs the 
Night of my soul and feel my 
Heart sink, so crestfallen inside 
That the world is not still 
Beautiful and green with life 
And love such as the love that 
Lies dormant and waiting in the 
Core of my soul’s heart. It loves 
Purely, faithfully, and forever all 
That ask the vows. This is the well 
That will never run dry, this is the 
Reason the distance makes me cry.

dua

“Lonely hours are the best moments of life,

Because they’re the only time

I share my deepest secrets with the most trusted person in the world;

Myself AND the One that created her; Allah azza wa jaal.”

Sinking into Shadow

I saw the maiden’s 
Silvery hair, her eyes like 
Rubies shone brighter in 
The night than the sun 
Then I knew the voice 
That called so softly 
To my soul had taken over 
What was never my own 
And who am I to deny 
The beauty of a perfect 
Heavenly paradise to 
Those who lie down 
To happily die and who 
Was I to warn them anyway 
I just ran away today 
Crying, weeping, and never 
Never sleeping as the screams 
Of past and future haemorrhage 
Inside me, killing me so lovely