Explaining Depression

SlumpingĀ inĀ depression and sadness that rocked me to the core.

Reality has hit.

My world isn’t the same everything has changed !

Gone are the rose tinted glasses

Gone is the sprinkling of light rain showers filled with the laughter of children splashing in the puddles.

When I outside all I see is gray fog filled everything in muted colors ,

Like all the colors are washed away and then replaced with gray ,

Gray in varying shades depending on the hour and how I feel sometimes I can escape from the sadness and depression

But it’s usually short lived and it’s getting harder and harder to find ways to not feel so bad

Living life with a chronic recurring mental illness is very lonely and at times isolating, Then there are the times when you want to do things and feel better but nothing seems to actually help,

This is when you just try to survive on good enough yes there are days when good enough is all I can do

Then other days were good enough and plastering on my mask and get through the day until I can go hide away and cry.

State of mind

State of mind
One day I laugh
The next day I cry
I’m just hanging on
While life pases me by
Somewhere I have the will
But I don’t know the way
I dream of a happy life
From my bed where I lay
But I must accept
Only I have the key
To take one day at a time
And set myself free
So I take a deep breath
And I crawl out of bed
I won’t waste another day
I’ll be smiling instead
I look forward to my future
In my new state of mind
Now I’m back in control
I’ve left the darkness behind