Sorrows Of Lost Tomorrow’s

I am alone, without a voice or vision

I have great sorrows and greater regret in all the missed tomorrows.

Yesterday’s pasts repeat themselves with awful images running through my head.

Clouds blur my eyes,

And I don’t feel well,

my hearts in anguish dark on the round my tears tumble down from above,

Falling

On the ground there isn’t

A thousand new tears.

I have never seen such griefs.

my heart has shattered.

Into a thousand tiny shards of sapphire blue diamond

Cloaked in ruby red stained tears shredded of all my life’s blissful dreams and the hopes of all the days,
Dark midnight blue of storms immense,

In my own eyes

Tears Within

Tears Within

Feelings of all kinds

Linger within me, the tears deep

Within reach beyond

Any feeling or expression.

They are there to remind me of my weaknesses, 

My sorrows,

The happiness of life

And the joy it brings.

They arise at times

Out of no where,

For reasons unknown.

They linger, 

All the time deep

Within my spirit

Just waiting for the time

To be needed.

Tears,

Life’s little expression from within

That glistens from without.

Life’s Warm Glow

If you’ve ever seen

A beautiful sunset

Then you know it’s

Not seeing its warmth,

But letting yourself

Dream and feel its glow.

It holds spirits, 

Souls,

Memories that rekindle

Every time you’d find yourself

Drifting away into its

Magnificent glory.

A sunset is nothing

Short of a warm loving

Moment that you forget

About life and its sorrows, 

It’s shortcomings.

It’s there to remind us all

Of life’s treasures

And beauty.

Your….

Your…

My friend,

My companion,
Though good times and bad
My friend,
My buddy,
Though happy and sad,
Beside me you stand,
Beside me you walk,
You’re there to listen,
You’re there to talk,
With happiness,

Smiles,
With pain and tears,
I know you’ll be there,
Throughout the years!

I wrote this poem in 2006 shortly after we got married.

Pain

Heartbreak is
Cold cruel gut wrenching
My stomach is in knots
My heart is bleeding red blood
As tears slowly well up……

Then tumble-down my face
Stop the pain !

Stop the pain!
I silently pray to Allah
I ask him

Why me!!

Why now must I always be in pain
My mind is numb

My heart no long feels,

It has been ripped out
Or stabbed with the invisible knife ,

That only I know and see
I silently beg for relief

I pray to Allah to care for my soul

Copyright ©2005 

Tears

So you see the tears, 

Flowing down my cheeks like a roaring ocean tide?

Do you see all the hurt, pain, 

And anger through my tears?
Do you see the little girl who only wants to be hugged,
Kissed,

 And loved through my tears?
Who do you see through my tears?
I’m  you on a dark, 

Lonely night when no one is there . . .
Silently you cry . . . 

Knowing deep in your heart,
You can get through this again, 

One more time.
You see tears bring courage, 

Strength, 

And wisdom.

Don’t Want To Lose You

Life has been a obstacle for me, 
Never knowing what to do, 
What to let him see. 
I lay in bed awake at night, 
Tears streaming down my cheeks, 
Waiting for my heart to take flight. 
I'm so confused and don't know what to do, 
All I can think about, 
Is losing you.

A Well That Will Never Run Dry

The tears I cry are sad 
And lonely tears, filled with 
Heartbreaking pain and bitter fears 
Of what may not come to be. 
I stare out into the midnight 
Blue darkness that engulfs the 
Night of my soul and feel my 
Heart sink, so crestfallen inside 
That the world is not still 
Beautiful and green with life 
And love such as the love that 
Lies dormant and waiting in the 
Core of my soul’s heart. It loves 
Purely, faithfully, and forever all 
That ask the vows. This is the well 
That will never run dry, this is the 
Reason the distance makes me cry.

Forever Not Yours

Your presence graces my dreams
I reach for you as you drift away
Your stare is full of comfort,

So peaceful
I find solace in your arms
I sit on the windowsill,

Writing
Anticipating your embrace,

Your soft smile
Yet I am jaded in your love
I am left behind in the dust
I cannot get up to run away
Your love shackles me,

It’s a weight tied
So heavy around my ankles
It prevents me from running
But my acidic tears burn the shackles away
And I am free once again
I will not succumb to your sweet imprisonment
I will not surrender to your pacifying touch
I will not be enticed by your corruptive love
I will not be broken again

 

Perhaps

 

Perhaps our eyes need to be washed with our tears once in awhile,

So we can see life with a clear view again.”

Lost Babies

Life moves on days go by and all I do is cry
In the morning I awake my face stained with tears
My sheets drenched with tears
All I feel is pain and despair
I call at for my children only they are not there
Then I remember that my ex has stolen them away
The court gave them to him on the 23rd of January since then it has been like a living Nightmare only I can’t awake from it
I pray to Allah every day and night to keep them safe and bring them home soon

(I wrote this poem after losing a custody battle in 2006)