Time Timed

Time Timed

If I could just stop time would I
No, I think I would question why
And wonder why we want to freeze
All that today puts us at ease
But in frozen time comfort will rust
Trapped moments are no more than dust.
If I could buy more time, would I
No, I think I would question why
And wonder why we want to lengthen
A cord that only use can strengthen
No more no less, what is. . .is right
Because Time can never cure hindsight
Yet.
Can speed have a speed…or Time be timed.
Can thoughts in my head be really mimed.
When the wine entered my head i chimed…..
Everything if not reasoned is RHYMED

If I Knew..

If I Knew…5/24/02
If I knew it would be the last time
That I’d see you fall asleep
I would hug you more tightly
And pray the lord, your soul to keep
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more
If I knew it would be the last time
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say, “I love you”
Instead of assuming you would know I do
But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
I get to hold you tight.

Betrayal

Betrayal

She told me she loved me,

She told me she cared.
She promised to help me,

She said she’d always be around.
I guess she’s a liar,

She’s not here anymore.
I hardly ever see her,

She barely comes back.
It used to hurt and it still does.
But I’ve learned to ignore it,

I shut that pain out.
She cheated me a childhood,

She stole from me my normal life.
She told me a thousand lies,

Left me confused by hypocrisy.
I can never forgive her,

My mother the traitor.

Loss

Loss
We never even got to know each other,
Though you lived inside me for a while.
You were born too soon and left again,
Without granting us a smile.
The hurt is deep,
We feel it now and always will,
But the memory of what might have been
Is what we’ll always keep.

Look at me,

How far I’ve come..

Now watch me unravel and come undone.

In hindsight,

Now,

It all makes sense-

Backstabbed by people

I considered my friends.

Sometimes I feel like I’m to blame;

I go to scream,

But I refrain.

I go to talk,

Then lose my breath-

My tears are all that I have left.

I’ve lost what I have cherished most;

I’m a lone survivor,

Living among ghosts.

Broken Heart

Broken Heart

You broke my heart,

Tore it in two,

Then lied even more.

You broke my heart,

Said you still loved me,

Then went for my enemy.

You broke my heart,

Told me you liked her,

Then said you didn’t love me anymore.

You broke my heart,

I told you I still loved you,

Then you said you never loved me.

Loss

When I Woke Up
I woke up to an empty space
That place where I would see your face
The pillow cold, the covers neat
Our big old dog lay at my feet…
…Waiting for me to get up.

I got up to an empty space
I made my coffe in the same old place
Your cup sits empty in the cupboard there
On the counter some breakfast we used to share…
…I cannot eat.

I walked out to an empty space
I drew a smile upon my face
But deep inside my heart would cry
Sometimes so bad I thought I’d die…
…and I do.