I remember
The pillow smashing
My face
I don’t remember
The sweet caress
Of love
I remember
The pain
I don’t remember
The hospital stay
I remember
Fear of sleep
Of being weak
I don’t remember
Silence
I remember
Noise
Heavy through the air
I don’t remember
Being safe
What is safe?
I remember
Mistrust
I don’t remember
Trust
I remember
The lock jiggling in the door
As he tries his key
I don’t remember
Calling the police
I remember
The door trembling
As he kicks it
I don’t remember
The calm
I remember
Fear
The hatred in
His eyes
I don’t remember
Thanking the police
I remember
His last lie
I love you!
I never hurt you!
I don’t remember
His last truth
I don’t remember
How long the police were there
Like a wall of true blue
Shielding me from a monster
I as white as a lotus
I remember
The stillness after
The police left
I don’t remember
The time
I couldn’t find the clock
I remember
The coldness
The fear, panic and crying
I don’t remember
Sleeping
I remember
Dawn, bright and cold
Twittering birds
I don’t remember
Dressing
I remember
The doctor’s visit
The pain
I don’t remember
The trip home
I remember
Sweet children’s
Voices
I don’t remember
Dinner
I remember
Sweet sleeping children
I don’t remember
Silence
I do remember
That I am human
And
Deserve respect
I don’t remember
Crying
I do remember
Feeling relief.
I wrote this poem in 2005 about domestic violence , it happened to me and this was my way to heal from it.