My heart beats within
all through it lives without
Love the one thing I need most
It hurts but yet I live
to live without love and I ponder
Why bother to live at all?
Nothing makes sense
It’s the one true thing that makes me happy
But also the one thing that always seems to cut at my heart with a dull knife
in the face of god whose only goal in life is to do such a thing
And then my tears do fall
down the face that so wants
to be touched by masculine hands
That long to do so then
I wake and see him
You gaze upon me blindly, not seeing the truth.
You see me for what I am not.
I am not like her.
The wings that held me up once were torn by emotion.
My eyes, amber velvet turned opaque green by tears.
My face, once radiant and smiling, now somber and weary by hatred.
This pain stamped an emotional burn upon my life.
Look at me; open your eyes to the sunshine that forever awaits.
A chained heart, sealed with eternal pain…
Breaking the shattered illusion where life was bliss.
Seeing the sun through the mist, through dark clouds…
Shackled forever to this misery, to this hatred.
Old wounds disturbed once again…
Your presence graces my dreams
I reach for you as you drift away
Your stare is full of comfort, so peaceful
I find solace in your arms
I sit on the windowsill, writing
Anticipating your embrace, your soft smile
Yet I am jaded in your love
I am left behind in the dust
I cannot get up to run away
Your love shackles me, it’s a weight tied
So heavy around my ankles
It prevents me from running
But my acidic tears burn the shackles away
And I am free once again
I will not succumb to your sweet imprisonment
I will not surrender to your pacifying touch
I will not be enticed by your corruptive love
I will not be broken again
On a lonely road
We’ll travel it on a dark stormy night.
We’ll travel it without light!
Oh we’ll travel it in the moonlight!
We’ll travel this lonely road
to it’s happy endings.
Every lonely road has a happy ending.
Sometimes the lonely road seems endless for some of us.