Averse Reactions and weight gain

As salam alikum

I haven’t written in a while to be honest I have had a lot going on and just haven’t had the time to catch my breath let alone write so here’s a brief update :

I tried a IUD ( form of birth control with hormones) and in the 3 months I had it I gained 21 pounds Yes 21 pounds and I’ve had a long period over 4 weeks long it made me feel blah cranky and all around horrible so on the 27th I had it removed and my body decided to get revenge on me I still have a period and very bad cramps ( checked with doctor and she said total normal some times I want to scream…………………………

My toddler is still bouncing off the walls and messing up the house as soon as I get it clean .



well readers I do not know what to say …………………………………………………….

I feel like crap well to be exact this has been how I’ve felt for days my eyes leak out tears I am sad and lonely as well as stressed out a bit over whelmed why why why is all that runs through my head somedays I think I’d be better off dead

all the things never said ……………………open letter to my deceased best friend

All the things I never got to say are sitting here in my head

I can’t say them to you because you are now dead

there is no use wishing I could go back and tell you all that’s swirling around in my head.

I pray Allah that you find peace and Jannah

I want to says these things in my head so here goes

I love you were my best friend

We were kindred spirits forging ahead no one really understood us but we could sit for hours and not have to share every thought that popped into our heads

we knew when one and other needed an ear a shoulder or both ,

we laughed together at the good times

we cried together through the bad times

we were each others rocks

we were best friends and we knew that was what we needed

I miss you

I just wanted to say sorry if I ever caused you any pain

I’m sorry you died alone I feel bad about not knowing you were as sick as you were.

I can’t turn back the clocks of time there is no rewind in life it just keeps marching on …………………………………………………………….

I am glade we got to walk on the road of time together even if it was just a short while .

I sorry if I messed up in getting your will stuff straightened out it just wasn’t and isn’t easy .

I did keep the promise that you would be buried Islamicly , I made sure all the islamic stuff found a new home

I miss your laughter and talking , I even miss the times we shared in tears we had good times we had happy times we had bad times and sad times

You were my best friend I miss you and will pray for you

cool no more chemical bugs sprays

solace and joy

My Dears,

The height of summer’s heat is behind us. Mornings and nights are definitely cooler. That means spiders and other creepy crawlies are seeking a warm place for the winter. And our homes are the best lodgings to be had.

One way to deal with spider invasions is to prevent them. I prefer to use the power of essential oils to make my own spider/insect repellant.

I rounded up a list of essential oils insect repellants from several aromatherapy books. And if pregnant or nursing, or suffering from an ailment, research the effects of the oils before using and always consult your health care provider and/or aromatherapist. Here’s the list:

  • Lavender
  • Cedarwood
  • Citronella
  • Eucalyptus (has a slight estrogen-like effect on the body)
  • Geranium (avoid in early stages of pregnancy)
  • Lemongrass
  • Clove

Of course, the recipe I use remains a closely guarded family secret. However, here is a good one…

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f♥•~~ The Quran ~~•♥

A Book that is full of answers,
A Book that makes you cry.
A Book that makes you notice,
How much harder you can try.
A Book that makes you realize,
What true love really is…
A Book that gives you direction,
for all of life’s tough biz.
A Book that gives you hope,
that Someone somewhere’s watching over you.
A Book that helps you out,
Through all the times your blue.
A Book that was revealed to our beloved Prophet(S.A.W.W.),
over a period of 23 years
Once you put faith into this Book,
You can handle worldly fears.
A gift sent down from Heaven,
A treasure from above,
Written proof that shows us
How blessed we are with Allah Subhanuhu Wa Taala’s love!


Before I was a Mom – I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom – I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom – I had never been puked on – Pooped on – Spit on – Chewed on, or Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom – I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests…or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom – I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom – I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom – I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Send this to someone whom you think is a special Mom…
And remember that behind every successful woman…… is a basket of dirty laundry.


OK lets try this post again yes this will be the second time I’ve tried writing this post

I haven’t been in a bloggy mood I have been fighting with depression , depression is hard and mine has been kicking my butt to be quite honest

Being depressed sucks it is like walking around wearing glasses that make everything look gray and then there is the physical effects of depression

either I am sleeping too much ( if I get the chance during the day , or I sleep to little , like stay up all night watching TV then there’s the issues with food

during the day I don’t feel hungry but in order to avoid having a argument with my husband about not eating I force myself to eat when I have zero appetite

then there is those darn weird as cravings for starchy foods like bread and sugar filled     baked goods don’t get me started on the ice cream I know I eat to much ice cream and other stuff that falls in the less than good for you section of foods .

It doesn’t help that my husband has pointed out that I gained weight in the last 3 days he has said that to me 9 times what is he trying to pick a fight? Does he want me to feel bad about myself ? Well I know I gained weight to be honest I gained back all the weight I had lost which makes me feel bad I don’t need someone else pointing it out to me  , what I need is some support and some place were I can work out without having to worry about the children getting into trouble or making a mess .

Walking as excise just isn’t cutting it I need to add something else to help me lose the weight and keep it off maybe I need to add a spinning class and swimming boy do I miss swimming it is a nice feeling of floating in water not worrying about your joints taking a pounding it gentle stretches and works out your muscles.

It feels good to just write and not worry about it getting it all out on paper is a relief …………………………………………….

I should set some goals for myself

Goal number 1 drink more water and less juice ,

will keep you updated with the goals and how they are going  .

well that’s all for now

Patience is endured by self discipline.
Allah is speaking to you but you don’t listen.
Not thinking outside out of the box.

you’re feet are hurt from kick all the rocks.
Head down and mad about the world.
Making yourself sick when your eyes start to swirl.
Getting really bad gut feelings and confused.
Temptations of going to the past is how you’ll be abused.
Just being in the same position as you were before.
When you could have had the option to fall on the floor.
Taking up too much time and running away from truth.
Keep in your mind your getting older, no longer a youth.
Allah makes everything happen for a reason.
He’s the reason you’re alive and still breathing
But you’re still not seeing’
Unbelieving, not caring and holding onto ya sin.
There’s always repentance.
Every time we hear Allah’s name, there’s remembrance.
Not about just who He is or what He created.
Everything in His works has even prostrated.
The Moon, The Sun, Stars, and Planets.
If you can look up to either one of them with out a non-believer there, I bet you’d get it.
Just take a look for yourselves and open up your mind.
Allah willing will guide you at the right place at the right time.