Black Oblivion
Have you ever been so depressed
You stopped crying?
Numb
To the crashing
And all you can do is watch it fall.
Simple pains of everlasting
Black Oblivion.
Dreams-
Sucked away.
No depth exists in an endless sick, dark sea.
Life-
Is meaningless
And now forgotten.
Eternally the Bermuda Triangle.
Once you hit bottom, Rock bottom
There is only one way to go-Up.
Sure! Yeah right!-Face it
There is no surfacing.
I am:
Null-Void-Done.
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Gone!
In the cold pale morn
Her cold dead lips
She wasn’t in love
She never was
The death that took her was
Excrestionating
Doctors diagnosed
Depression
But that’s not
Why she died
She died
Despair
Loneliness
Because
No one cared
No one called
Her on the phone
She had no one
No one even
Knew where
She lived
At work
She was overlooked
The best in her field
No one
Noticed
Her friends
Shorn
Quit
Of
But
Cared
Or so they called
Themselves
Described her
As
Withdrawn
Quit
Shy
Soft-spoken
Very timid
Around guys
She died
Because
No one
Loved her
Her heart
Broke
Lack of
Affection
One day
From the lack of human contact
She decided
To disappear
What’s the use?
No one cares
She thought
All they do is
Give me abuse
Physical
Mental
Sexual
I get bullied
And harassed
At work some weirdo jerk grabs
The day she
Lack of love
No one noticed
See the empty shell
She was still
Alive to them
My ass
Died from
They didn’t
The distant look
No one realized
Until it was to late
By then she was gone
Gone was her
They didn’t
Realize
In her eyes
In it’s place
Was a blank
Smile
Her laugh
Sonic face
Loss
When I Woke Up
I woke up to an empty space
That place where I would see your face
The pillow cold, the covers neat
Our big old dog lay at my feet…
…Waiting for me to get up.
I got up to an empty space
I made my coffe in the same old place
Your cup sits empty in the cupboard there
On the counter some breakfast we used to share…
…I cannot eat.
I walked out to an empty space
I drew a smile upon my face
But deep inside my heart would cry
Sometimes so bad I thought I’d die…
…and I do.
Never-ending Thoughts
Never-ending Thoughts
My thoughts are many, but fragments;
Each one not making any sense on its own.
Haven’t quite figured out how to put all the pieces together;
Perhaps…no, that would be the easy way out.
Each end looking for a beginning;
Each beginning keeps starting over.
Is it the past merely repeating itself?
Or is it trying to teach a lesson that can’t be learned?
The answer is somewhere between the beginning and the end.
Because the end, ultimately, is death
.
Hell Is Real
Grief
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
the little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray
in this girl; this child where hollows have bred
a deepening sea of no-whereness consumes
and eats away at every connecting thread
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.
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Life’s a Prison
Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.
Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don’t matter,
There’s no one to care.
Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you’re better without one –
Stops you aiming too high.
Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.
Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.
Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.
Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don’t let on that you’re not,
What you’re pretending to be.
Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.
Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.
So how do you grow,
With a time bomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?
You can’t.
Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion
Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed
There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray
Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nothingness
And eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.
Allah Hafiz
Darkness
I’m swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
And I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
And I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won’t let go of its hold on me
And I slowly begin to give in
To the feeling that lies below the water line
The waters start to fill my lungs
The lungs that once held so much life
Yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn’t lead to happiness
But why doesn’t someone grab my hand
Pull me from darkness’ grasp?
Because no one knows I stand at the boundary
The boundary between light and dark
So I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
That I once held in my heart
can’t save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
Undetected by the occupants of that world
I don’t want to fight anymore
I’ve given into darkness