I want to go to a far away place called home
I want a man that I can call my own
I’m an angel who wants everyone to know
I am very lonely I want somewhere to go
It hurts so bad I can’t sleep at night
Till I’m alone in my room holding on to my pillow tight
I dream about glasses breaking
And when I get anxious my legs start shaking
These thoughts drag me in so deep
I think about it so much, till I can’t sleep
I’m talking to someone, maybe from above
But no one is there to love
It feels like I can’t have this or this is what it seems
And when I do sleep lonely in my dreams
All I want is to go home
And have one man to call my own

My Lonely Beauty

My Lonely BeautyOn every snowy morning on every rainy day I have seen a

Dream the beauties dream on earth a lovely girl the unnamed

Girl lingers every moment in my life only in the last dream I

Knew she lonely yet lovely yet beautiful, 

I love to dissolve

In the lovely dream with my lonely beauty.


Being numb inside.
Like the winter cold.

As the season rolls on,

The surface becomes

Colder and harder.

Only when the sun

Changes its tune

Does the surface

Allow warmth

To break through.

Finding the one love

That can heat up that

Heart of stone.

Thaw it out like

A summers day,

Make it turn into a

New season worth

Living and dreaming.

Letting the heart

Learn to feel warmth again.

I Pretended Not To Notice

I Pretended Not To Notice

I pretended not to notice the color
Of his eyes; or the way he would
Glance past me when I caught him
Looking at me.
I pretended not to notice when his eyes
Promised me the stars.
I pretended not to notice the joy
Apparent in his eyes at the sight of
His child asleep next to me.I pretended not to notice when his eyes
Noticed someone else.

I pretended not to notice the
Disappointment in the eyes looking
Back at me from my mirror.

I pretended not to notice those eyes
Filled with tears.

I pretended not to notice…..

Because my
Soul could take no more.


When I Woke Up
I woke up to an empty space
That place where I would see your face
The pillow cold, the covers neat
Our big old dog lay at my feet…
…Waiting for me to get up.

I got up to an empty space
I made my coffe in the same old place
Your cup sits empty in the cupboard there
On the counter some breakfast we used to share…
…I cannot eat.

I walked out to an empty space
I drew a smile upon my face
But deep inside my heart would cry
Sometimes so bad I thought I’d die…
…and I do.


Lost Dream

We meet only a week ago
We vowed our lives together
We shared the same dreams and goals
We were a match made from heaven by Allah
She would not let go she stole him away from me
My heart bleeds every minute we are apart
My heart will shatter in a matter of days
Be broken beyond repair my love is gone afar
I miss him

I need him ,

Love him
I understand why he left
To finish the unfinished.

Copyright ©2005 



What is lonesome?
Someone close
That does not hear
Just the same as not
Being there
Something lost in a fog
In a void beyond
A word lying around unspoken
Or unanswered dying, slowly dying
What is lonely?
A hallow place where nothing echos
A void of dispair
Looking for someone to show
That they care.


Let the days you do what you want
Medicine breath if a court ruling
The panic of the accident at night
What incidents of lower survival
Be a man for horror skin
Himtk and tolerance and to meet
Although it has many weaknesses in the creatures
Your password and have a cover
Generous cover every defect
Covered by the generosity as has been said
Does not see the humiliation never curse
The scourge of gloating Aloaada
Do not shake the tolerance of the skimpy
What in Hell is thirsty for water
And sustenance is not lacking in careful
And not more than living in the effort
Or sorrow or pleasure lasts
You do not misery and prosperity
If you are a heart is content
You and the owner of this world, whether
It was revealed courtyard Almnaya
Not protect it and the land of sky
And the land of God and the broad but
If the judiciary had no space down
Let the days betrays all the time
What is a substitute for drug death

Darkness, All Consuming

Alone again in this 
Light, I see the peril 
Of the darkness. 
I watch it and it me. 
As it infects and destroys 
All that I see, I 
Wonder why I just stand 
Here, all by myself, 
With no one to help me. 
It’s only a matter of 
Waiting now. This all consuming 
Dark, its everblooming light, 
All just for me and my agony to 
Share and I make 
One last silent cry as I too am concealed.