Broken Heart

Broken Heart

You broke my heart,
Tore it in two,
Then lied even more.

You broke my heart,
Said you still loved me,
Then went for my enemy.

You broke my heart,
Told me you liked her,
Then said you didn’t love me anymore.

You broke my heart,
I told you I still loved you,
Then you said you never loved me.

Hypo manic mixed state 

skin is antisy and creepy crawling inside with anguish and annoying deep within my soul 

anguished despairing dark deepness of all my life 

depressed despair! filled with grayish green blackness that noone else understands or cares 

its like staring into a abyss and the abyss stares back 

but no matter how deep the abyss is its up to you to jump or not! 

 

Strength

Strength

When problems in life make you seem weak
that’s when you are most likely defeated.
But once you realize, there is a strength
in you that can not be weakened, that’s when
you see clearly and your path in life is
deepened. Don’t let any one or any thing
choose your destiny, just trust in who you
are and proceed accordingly. You are
strongest in your darkest hour, so hang
tough and believe in your power. Power to
control your own destiny and not settle for
anything less than what you want your
life to be. Yes, this strength lies deep
inside us all. So, when you’re about to
fall, take a step back, reflect on who
you are and answer the call.

Ode To Lost Sleep 

Sleep fails me more and moreI lay awake tossing and turning, 

My mind unable to quit down  

Staring at the wall and ceiling gets old fast

I dont know what happened and why I cant sleep 

None of the sleep soultions help 

I feel helpless and hopeless 

My mind dwells in darkness of shadowy sadness, 

And unending sorrows

I silently cry tears of fears and sorrows that only I know, 

About noone sees the shadow of my life’s struggles against this thief, 

Bipolar has many mangled sides to it ,watch closely and it will steal everything

Starting with the thoughts of happiness it will replace them with gloom and doom worries about Silly things as well what if if only!

Then your to tired and worried to sleep so you just pass the time and worry and fear eats away 

You peaceful slumber by the time you have figured it out the problem isn’t easily remedy. 

 

Bipolar moods , how I feel 

I am agitated beyond anything everything is grating on my nerves And annoying me 

My hurts so much 

Ugh!!

Ugh!! 

My mood is peevish over nothing 

Can one always be defeated by bipolars chemical hell?​ 

I stuggle in the foggy blackish-grey cloak that is bipolar it makes life’s living hellish pains 

Noone else around me understands the silent struggles that go on in my head

I am so sick of people telling me to snap out of it…….

If I could snap out of it i would’ve but bipolar is a illness just like diabetes or heart disease,

It requries treatment and education.

Some people, with bipolar find solutions that work for them 

I havent found anything that works ,

So I muddle through my days as best as I can ! 

 

Harmony

Harmony

If I had a wish, it would be this
that all Allah’s people would be just like him,
able to cope, trust and just get along.
And not wonder if someone’s doing them wrong.
If we just put our trust in Him,
then we could surely enter in, and enjoy what life
has to offer. Instead of trying to hate on your
sister or brother. Yes, life would be so sweet,
if we just stop trying to compete, for what’s already been
promised. Life everlasting and peace of mind.
So, get it together and claim your prize,
for I truly want to get what’s mine.

Don’t let them!!!

Don’t let them!!!

Don’t let them tear you down just because you are brown,
Don’t let them make you cry or make you want to die, Don’t
you dare hold your head down for that they would see they
had brung you down. Keep your head up child.

Don’t let them
be the reason why you go home and cut yourself.For that I
would say,get out make it your day and love yourself!

The Women I Admire

The Women I Admire

The Woman I admire
wearing her attire
hiding her figure,
thus, curbing my desire..

The Woman I desire
fearing the (hell) Fire
is diligent in her prayers
for the rewards of life hereafter…

The Woman I encounter
is beyond bother
with the keen race
to beautify the face!

The Woman I ask
from dawn to dusk
is busy with ALLAH
murmuring, subhan’allah, subhan’allah, subhana’allah

The Woman I observe
certainly deserves
better respect
than what she expects

The Woman I listen

The Women I Admire

The Woman I admire
wearing her attire
hiding her figure,
thus, curbing my desire..

The Woman I desire
fearing the (hell) Fire
is diligent in her prayers
for the rewards of life hereafter…

The Woman I encounter
is beyond bother
with the keen race
to beautify the face!

The Woman I ask
from dawn to dusk
is busy with ALLAH
murmuring, subhan’allah, subhan’allah, subhana’allah

The Woman I observe
certainly deserves
better respect
than what she expects

The Woman I listen for it is better I warned
before all is gone…