Cold Spirit

Cold Spirit

When winter paley promenades,

And softly settles blankets white.

Then with wailing lamenting winds,

Glides in gleaming might.


Dances with the light.

The sun in reverence taking leave.

Turns his friendly face another way.

Stands afar at winter’s solstice,




Winter’s cool crisp fingers fondling earth,

In lingering love.




Her majesty enthroned,




Undisputed queen.



Fearing spring,

Dreading dying.




Lays her scepter down.

Broken Love

Broken Love

Infect me with your cancer, 

Cure me with your disease. 

Rip apart my heart and bleed yourself into me. 

Steal away my will, 

Tear apart my dreams. 

Stitch me up with a smile and pull apart my seams. 

Break all my ambitions, 

Tatter up my heart. 

Steal all my desires and shatter my world apart. 

Commit me to your prison, 

Label me with a number. 

Stab me with the needle and give an endless slumber. 

Burn away all my flesh, 

Drain my blood to the floor. 

Kill me with the love that I don’t want anymore.


When everyone is against you
Nothing ever goes your way
Just remember it will be better
So do not cry my sweet one
Tomarrow will be better
Never give up on life
There is so much more to learn
Hope and love carrys us forever
You are the one to be strong
It was never asked it just is
Day by day we learn it is not easy
Trying to hold on to our dreams
Just take one day at a time
Someday things will be perfect
Hold your head up high
Life is preciouse and dear
Keep your dreams and hopes
Tomorrow will be yours

Sunshine Blogger Award 

As Salam Alikum Sister Shukrallah,Thanks sister for the sunshine award nomination , check out her blog ShukrallahBlog

The Rules:

Here are the questions Shukrallah has ask, they  are :

1. What is one of your favorite Hadith of the Prophet (Sall Allāhu ʿalay-hi wa-sallam) & why

One day the Messenger of Allah (saws) noticed a bedouin (desert Arab) leaving his camel without tying it and he asked the bedouin: “Why don’t you tie down your camel?” The bedouin answered, “I put my trust in Allah.” The Prophet (saws) then said, “Tie your camel first, then put your trust in Allah”

Related by At-Tirmidhi.

Because it means use common sense and trust in Allah
2. How do you prefer to spend your free time?

Gardening, organizing things , cooking healthy foods , writing and reading

3. Who do you most admire in life & why?

Not sure never really thought about it,

4. What are your top three favorite books?

I have to choose one?

1. Quran

2. Back to Eden

3.Back to Basics a complete guide to traditional skills ,

If I have to choose ,

I love books and will read any book once

5. What are you afraid of?


6. How much water do you drink on an average day?

Over a gallon and a half I’m always thirsty and always drinking water. It’s

7. What was the last picture you took?

The moon in the early morning sky here is the picture

8. How many languages do you speak?

English ,

American Sign Language (haven’t used in years so am a bit rusty),

Darija aka Moroccan Arabic ( I understand more than I speak as long as it’s

spoken slowly, I am trying to become fluent but it’s been a struggle),

(a bit of Spanish

and French cooking terms both which I haven’t used in years)

9. If you could live in any country where would you live? Depends I’d probably just travel and live in all the countries just so I could see which one I liked best.

10. If money was free, would you still go to work? Yes I’d work because being idle makes my bipolar mood disorder worse.

11. What do you love about yourself? How I have survived so many traumatic experiences and still move forward.

The 11 blogs I choose are :

  1. A Dirham A Day


  3. Mariam’s Journal

  4. Thoughts of an American Hijabi

  5. bipolarchaosblog

  6. Rekindling The Flame Of Imaan

  7. MariamMea


  9. Simple Muslimah

  10. Muslimah According to Me


My questions are:

How many countries have you lived in?

What’s your favorite color and why?

How long could you go without tv Internet and cell phone?

Could you survive in the wilderness with just a knife , fire and water?

What’s one weird thing you eat that others don’t?

What is one place you wanted to travel to but never have been and why?

If you could would you want to speak ,read and understand every language ever spoken?

How many aunts and uncles do you have?

How many sisters and brother? And do you get along and regularly talk to them?

Do you have pets? If so what kind?

Have you ever spun yarn from wool?

Thank You for reading.



Know me and despair
It is me;

The terrible
Empty void that cannot
Care about you

Or your pains.
Know me and know a life
Bereft of joy,

Free from

And full only
Of desperate attempts at
The Eternal Death that
Awaits all.

Suicide is the only option
For when you know me…

You shall pray
Let me die,”

And I shall grant you this.

Wishing My Father Was Here.

My father has left this earth for eternal life. 

I was only fifteen when he left, 

And didn’t understand that he would never tuck me into bed, 

Say my prayers with me, 

Or ever kiss me goodnight anymore. 

Wishing my father was here to spoil me,

 Guide me, 

And lend me his ear, 

It would be wonderful to have him back. 

The food would just be the begining, the in depth conversations
That we would have would never end because
Of the eleven years we have been separated. 
The day is coming that I will
See my father once again in that special place called heaven.

Fear of the unknown

Fear of the unknown

Sometimes when I’m alone I cry; 

Not because I’m sad, So why?

 It’s as if my soul hurts 

For some unknown cause. 

I’m over come with tears,

 Trying hard to wash away my fears, 

Fears that scare me 

Because I don’t care 

Don’t care for me 

Or anyone else. 

I think I’m going to kill myself.

Birthday Wishes

Birthday Wishes
Birthday wishes are sent to you.
Glad to find you not feeling blue,
Even though you haven’t a clue.
Did you get anything new?
I hope you got your due!
Wishes all year long coming true.
Colors in different hues.
Brilliant, bright and vibrant never to lose.
This is my greatest muse.
Happy Birthday, I love you!