Sad Sorrows

I weep my heart out no one cares

slowly I have fallen 

down into the gray blackness of

despair 

anguishing for hours 

can barely left my head 

dragging myself through the days 

I paste on a mask and hope none sees through

my pain is always bubbling up, just beneath; 

never rising  

I hide the tears and fears 

depression slowly pulls me down 

lower than the darkest hour 

I cry out to Allah to give me relief from the never ending battle

I am bone weary how much longer must I fight against this losing battle 

I have fought for years and nothing ever changes 

the struggles of depression makes me forget how to smile or laugh

I feel like a big damp cold colorless fog holds onto me

Feeling Pain

Feeling Pain

As I live throughout the night to the day,

I wonder why you treated me this way,
Why you made me cry the tears I’ve cried,

And I still don’t understand the reasons why,
The reasons, obviously,

Are very bad,
Because of those tears,

I’ve gotten very mad,

Mad at the person I see in the mirror now,
Truthfully,

I don’t even know how,
But inside my head I feel so insane,

Deadly thoughts are running through my brain,
True,

My emotions may seem very empty,

It’s because of all this pain and misery,
That you’ve caused me,

Acting so mediocre,

Now you’re probably wondering what I’m going to say,
Well, I’m not going to tell you,

You know what I should do,
I should just make us over,

But that I won’t do,
I’ll just make you feel the pain that I was put through.