Broken Heart

Broken Heart

You broke my heart,
Tore it in two,
Then lied even more.

You broke my heart,
Said you still loved me,
Then went for my enemy.

You broke my heart,
Told me you liked her,
Then said you didn’t love me anymore.

You broke my heart,
I told you I still loved you,
Then you said you never loved me.

To Be A Friend

Be a friend ,

Be a friend to the poor ,

To the lonely ,to the sick
Bake a cake ,

Make a call ,

Spend a day have a ball
Finding out what makes other people tick
Don’t suppose when someone’s old they don’t need a hand to hold because from one to one hundred we depend.
On some love we can share ,

On just knowing someone’s there
So be a friend be a friend , be a friend
So be a friend be a friend , be a friend lend a hand as you’re traveling life’s road
Don’t sit home on a shelf , give your time , give yourself find a way to ease someone else’s load.
Pat a back , lend an ear, share a smile ,

Wipe a tear be a dear,

You’ll spread joy with each hand that you extend and you will find when you do twice as much comes back to you .
So be a friend be a friend , be a friend
So be a friend be a friend , be a friend
There’s a world out there waiting for your touch.
And though you may be small ,

If you’ll give it your all ,the good you do can add up to very much.
While you’re strong and can give that’s the right way to live for the love that you share you only lend
When it’s all said and done someday you will need a friend
So be a friend be a friend , be a friend,….

Be a friend!

Alone and Suffering

You see her standing there

The blank sonic look  on her face

You ask her what is wrong

She replies I’m fine

When in reality she is in pain

She hides the pain and hurt no one sees it

She cries herself  to sleep

In the morning she struggles her day

She has given up on ever finding a  friend

She silently prays that the pain will end

She has battled this demon that people call loneliness and depression she don’t know when

No one understands and care how she feels

She silently Prays that Allah will grant her relief

She feels isolated from the muslim community never really fitting in anywhere

Mostly she stays to herself , best thing you could do to help her is reach out offer to have tea or just talk loneliness hurts more than you know

Please do not judge her she is trying her best to survive  taking it one day at a time

Kindness and caring go along way so does saying as salam alikum sister how are you doing and actually listening because under the softly spoken I’m fine there is a catch and pause in her voice and the look in her eyes cries I’m not ok please hug me and let me know I’m not alone!

But most of the time it is ignored and she just suffers in silence alone as always

 

 

Simple Friend vs Real Friend

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend has never seen you cry.

A real friend has shoulders soggy  from your tears.

A simple friend doesn’t know your parents’ first names.

A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.

A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.

A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.

A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.

A real friend calls you after you had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.

A real friend expects to always be there for you!

Children

 

I see your puppy dog eyes, they are buried
in my vision. No one can take that away.
Your smile which used to bring me so much
joy is still imbedded in my mind, heart,
and soul. I twisted your dreads only to
realize that I had no skills whatsoever to
even attempt to do that. But you allowed me
too. Your teeth, your tummy, and your feet.
Please, the memories are still vivid. No
one can change those memories. They are
forever a part of me. The love that I once
felt could never be replaced, years later
finding out that it never could. We bought
so much pain into each other’s life. I’m
sad for the choices that I made. I wish I
knew what I had back then. I’m sorry for
ever causing you any pain and I hope the
feeling is mutual. You were an angel for
me at times. I couldn’t fully return that
for you because I didn’t know how.

Gone

in the cold pale morn
her cold dead lips
shorn
she wasn’t in love
she never was
the death that took her was
quite
excruciating
doctors diagnosed
Depression
but that’s not
why she died
she died
of
despair
loneliness
because
no one cared
no one called
her on the phone
she had no one
no one even
knew where
she lived
at work she was overlooked
the best in her
field
but
no one
noticed
cared
her friends
or so they called
themselves
described her
as
withdrawn
quite
shy
soft-spoken
very timid
around guys
she died
because
no one
loved her
her heart
broke
from
lack of
affection
of human contact
one day
she decides
to disappear
she thought
what’s the use
no one cares
all they do is give me abuse
physical
mental
sexual
i get bullied
and
harassed
at work
by some weirdo jerk
who grabs my ass
the day
she died from
lack of love
no one noticed
they didn’t
see the empty
shell
she was still
alive to them
they didn’t
realize
the distance look
in her eyes
no one realized
until it was too late
by then she was
gone
gone was her
smile
her laugh
in its place
was a Blank
sonic look

I stopped writing

I stopped writing

I used to picture a little island that would
whisk me away for days.
I should have never stopped writing.
It is what gives me the strength to move on.
I put it aside and carried on.
I used to be scared that someone would find
what I wrote and read it.
So after a while of having a precious
writing I’d rip it up.
I was embarrassed about some of the ways
that I felt, Ashamed.
My paranoid feelings made me put down
My Pen and Pad.
So I stored my emotions in the back of
my head.
Rigorously they built up in my brain
until it was too late to realize.
I held in so much pain.
Only to have my conscience haunt me and
by not writing, delete me.

What’s Left Of Me

Watch my life pass me by in a rear view mirror
pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer
I don’t wanna waste another day
stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

cause I want you and I feel you crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken and I’m faded
I’m half the man I thought I would be
but you can have what’s left of me

I’ve been dying inside
little by little
nowhere to go going out of my mind
and in endless circle
running from myself until
you gave me a reason for standing still

I want you and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken and I’m faded
I’m half the man I thought I would be
but you can have what’s left of me

Falling faster
barely breathing
give me something to believe in
tell me its not all in my head

take what’s left of this man
make me whole once again

cause I want you and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger, like a burning to find a place I’ve never been
now I’m broken and I’m faded,
I’m half the man I thought I would be
you can have all that’s left
what’s left of me

I’m been dying inside you see
I’m going outa my mind, outa my mind
I’m just wandering in circles all the time
will you take what’s left
will you take what’s left
will you take what’s left of me
just running in circles in my mind
will you take what’s left
will you take what’s left
will you take what’s left of me
take what’s left of me

letter never sent

You promised me everything
Yet
You never gave me anything
But
Pain
Suffering
And hurt feelings
You didn’t care for me this now I can see
You are so selfish all you cared about is staying
in America
You never spent time with me
You don’t know me
If you knew me you would have known I was unhappy
And in pain you would have heard me when I talked to
You, you would have listened and changed
You would have made it right but no selfish you
All you care about is cars, money and yourself
If you cared about me you would have spent time
With me you would have done partner yoga and
Counseling when I asked you to
Instead you left me alone slowly my hopes faded
My dreams died and I cried myself to sleep your famous
last lie was I still love her” you
Don’t love me or care for me if you did you wouldn’t
Have forced me to have anal sex you would have seen
That I was unhappy you would have tried to help but no
You just let me be unhappy
Silently I cry myself to sleep and silently my
Heart crumbles away
The sad thing
Is that I loved you
I still do
I do not feel like a human when around you
You are unhealthy you lead to stress in my
Life
You hurt me ignore me and demean me
I do not want my children to grow up seeing
That
So I have to let you go
I hope you realize that you
LOST!
You lost a faithful loving wife because you
Didn’t care about her
She tried to reach you
But you blocked her out with walls and by
Avoiding her
It doesn’t matter
You don’t care and you will never understand
Her
She was delicate as a leaf in the wind
Strong as a mountain
Brave as a knight
Gentle as a lamb
Sweet as honey
And now she is sad
As a clown crying tears of sorrow
Her tomorrow was shattered and you didn’t Care Allah Hafiz