set me free

My heart hurts
Tired
Aching
Straining to understand
Why you are so cruel
To me
Why
What did I do?
I never hurt you
I only cared for you
But you are a monster
Leave me alone
Stop
Telling
Lies
Go away
I want to be free
Leave me be!

(Written when I was in Abusive relationship)
Copyright ©2005

To Understand Understanding is Understanding. Understood?

Verbal and physical attacks no longer bother me. What bothers me is that people don’t have a sense of understanding. A sense of caring. A sense of compassion. Not the false sense of compassion, but actual compassion. Not a false sense of caring, but actual caring. Not a false sense of understanding, but a real, […]

https://talklifewithdepression.wordpress.com/2016/02/18/to-understand-understanding-is-understanding-understood/

Breaking up with a Friend: Why It’s the Hardest Breakup of All

It’s silly, but when I was younger I used to have a fridge magnet that summed up my very-picky social life. The writing on it said “Friends Are The Family We Choose For Ourselves”, and I used to smile from ear to ear every time I read those words. My definition of a best friend […]

http://muslimwords.com/2015/08/14/breaking-up-with-a-friend-why-its-the-hardest-breakup-of-all/

I pretended not to notice

I Pretended Not To Notice

I pretended not to notice the color
of his eyes; or the way he would
glance past me when I caught him
looking at me.

I pretended not to notice when his eyes
promised me the stars.

I pretended not to notice the joy
apparent in his eyes at the sight of
his child asleep next to me.

I pretended not to notice when his eyes
noticed someone else.

I pretended not to notice the
disappointment in the eyes looking
back at me from my mirror.

I pretended not to notice those eyes
filled with tears.

I pretended not to notice…..because my
soul could take no more.