Feeling of depressed mind rambles on

waiting patiently within these walls 

mind numbly bored hopeless drowning in utter despair 

depressingly  desperate despair washed over me again underneath 

this mask of uncertainty can’t even breath heartache head ache body pains 

foggy minds lossing sleep again its obsolete, underneath my masquerade 

of indifference surrounding myself in nothingness

when will these feelings go away?​ 

where is the light wonder of life and magical 

sunshine of happiness,

  

How Depression Belittles Oneself 

Unfortunately, depression never goes away

Sometimes it seems toget better but other times it rears its cruel despair and drags you down into those dark, foggy distance with all the pain and despair crept into my dreams then engulfed me again.​ 

I can’t help that I suffer through years of it most people in my life belittle and mock me because of depression like it is my fault, I thought educating them would help them understand but all they  do is ignore me and disregard what I say and how I feel.

Do my feelings and wishes and plans not even matter?​ 

What is the point of it all?​ 

I suffer in silnce now noone cares 

I spend my nights silently crying till I cant cry anymore

I spend my days just trying to not cry in front of anyone 

I paste on  a mask of stoicism slipped from time to time.