Alone and Suffering

You see her standing there

The blank sonic look  on her face

You ask her what is wrong

She replies I’m fine

When in reality she is in pain

She hides the pain and hurt no one sees it

She cries herself  to sleep

In the morning she struggles her day

She has given up on ever finding a  friend

She silently prays that the pain will end

She has battled this demon that people call loneliness and depression she don’t know when

No one understands and care how she feels

She silently Prays that Allah will grant her relief

She feels isolated from the muslim community never really fitting in anywhere

Mostly she stays to herself , best thing you could do to help her is reach out offer to have tea or just talk loneliness hurts more than you know

Please do not judge her she is trying her best to survive  taking it one day at a time

Kindness and caring go along way so does saying as salam alikum sister how are you doing and actually listening because under the softly spoken I’m fine there is a catch and pause in her voice and the look in her eyes cries I’m not ok please hug me and let me know I’m not alone!

But most of the time it is ignored and she just suffers in silence alone as always



Dua to Allah

In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful
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You tell on yourself by the friends you seek,
By the very manner in which you speak,
By the way you employ your leisure time,
By the use you make of dollar and dime;

You tell what you are by the things your wear,
By the spirit in which your burdens bear,
By the kind of things at which you laugh,
By the deeds you do which angels paragraph;

You tell what you are by the way you walk,
By the things of which you delight to talk,
By the manner in which you bear defeat,
By so simple a thing as by how you eat,

By the books you choose from the well-filled shelf,
In these ways and more you tell on yourself.
So there’s really no particle of sense
In an effort to keep up false pretense.

Remember, important of all, the only wealth
Is the spiritual happiness within yourself,
By having wisdom to make Islam your Deen
For Allah knows your true ways and heart Unseen.

Oh My Fingers!

As usual it was raining outside
The blessed water from Allah, falling far and wide
I spent my time in my room on my computer
As usual I e-mailed to my sister.
Suddenly, there’s pain on my fingers, Yikes!
The pain won’t stop, it just continues and strikes!
I looked at my fingers, what did I see?
WORMS crawling, eating, biting looking squirmy
tearing away the flesh that I adore
My fingers are pretty no more.

Oh no! I quickly jumped from my seat
The worms take my fingers for meat!
I shook my arms, but the worms ate away,
Biting, tearing my flesh and determined to stay.

“Allah! What did I do wrong?
Why are the worms so strong?”
Then an inner voice said to me
“O Muslim, this is your tragedy.
You wasted your fingers on deeds sinfully.

Was it not you who sent the fake e-mail?
You spread rumors and forwarded tall tales.
Your fingers typed in insults towards our Muslim scholars.
You hurt their feelings and harassed the others.

You designed a web page to insult Islam.
Your fitnah are worse than drinking rum!
You even flirted with the opposite sex on cyberspace
You even used seductive words and dirty phrases!
Instead of having meaningful discussions
You come in all ready for sensations.
Have you forgotten when you die?
Your fingers bear account and they can’t lie.
Your mouth will be shut but the fingers will reveal
everything which you typed on the keyboard to kill.

Your fingers keep no secret and speak for all to know
Repent now! Stop typing insults for show!”

I said “I promise! I promise! I’ll stop it!”
Then the rain stopped the room was lit.
My ears drummed wildly, my thoughts full of fear.
When I looked at my fingers, the worms disappear….
(If you belong to the above category, repent now. For our Lord Allah knows it all.)

When I say I am Muslim

When I say
When I say

I am a Muslim
I am not shouting “down with Christians and Jews.”
I am whispering, “I seek peace”

And Islam is the path that I choose.
When I say I am a Muslim
I speak this with pride.
And confess that sometimes I stumble,
And I need Allah to be my guide.
When I say I am a Muslim
I know this makes me strong.
And in those times when I am weak,
I pray to Allah for strength to carry on.
When I say I am a Muslim
I am not boasting of success.
I’m acknowledging that Allah has rescued me,
And I cannot ever repay the debt.
When I say I am a Muslim

I am not claiming tobe perfect.
My flaws are indeed visible,
But Allah forgives because His followers are worth it.
When I say I am a Muslim
It does not mean I will never feel pain.
I still have my share of heartaches,
Which is why I invoke Allah’s name.
When I say I am a Muslim
I do not wish to judge.
I have no such authority,
My duty is to submit to Allah’s All-Encompassing love.


Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire,
if you did what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don’t know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.
Be thankful for the difficult times, during those you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement
Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.
Be thankful for your mistakes,
they will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you’re tired and weary,
because it means you’ve made a difference.
It is easy to be thankful for the good things,
a life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.
Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they can become your blessings.



Please take a moment to relax your mind and humble
your heart to focus on
ALLAH (Almighty GOD). Allow Allah, to occupy your
mind while you read this
DUA, If we can
take the time to read long jokes, stories, etc.,we
should give the same
respect to this DUA (Prayer). Friends that pray
together, stay together.
Let’s pray…

OH ALLAH, I thank You for this day. I thank You for
my being able to see and
to hear this morning.I’m blessed because You are
forgiving and understanding
Oh Allah. You have done so much for me & You keep on
blessing me. Forgive me
this day for everything I have done, said or thought
that was not pleasing
to you. I ask YOU now for Your forgiveness. Please
keep me safe from all
danger and harm.

Help me to start this day with a new attitude and
plenty of gratitude. Let
me make the best of each and every day to clear my
mind so that I can hear
from You. Please broaden my mind that I can accept
all things. Let me not
whine and whimper over things I have no control

Let me continue to see sin through YOUR eyes and
acknowledge it as evil. And
when I sin, let me repent,and receive YOUR
forgiveness. And when this world
closes in on me, let me remember YOU – to slip away
and find a quiet place
to make DUA. It’s the best response when I’m pushed
beyond my limits. I know
that when I can’t make DUA, You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to
bless me that I may be a
blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me
uplifted that I may have
words of encouragement for others.

I make DUA for those that are lost and can’t find
their way. I make DUA for
those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I make
DUA for those who don’t
know You intimately. I make DUA for those that will
delete this without
sharing it with others. I make DUA for those that
don’t believe. But I thank
you that I believe.

I believe that Allah changes people and Allah
changes things. I make DUA for
all my sisters and brothers. For each and every
family member in their
households. I make DUA for peace, love and joy in
their homes that they are
out of debt and all their needs are met.

I make DUA that every eye that reads this knows
there is no problem,
circumstance, or situation greater than Allah. Every
Battle is in your hands
for You to fight. I make DUA that these words be
received into the hearts of
every eye that sees them and every mouth that
confesses them willingly. This
is my DUA. Aameen.

Blossoms Of Beauty

My sisters, you come in many colours
each with a shape and beauty all its own
like flowers in a garden
who can say which is best?

Tiny flaws are swallowed up by
massive beauty
The more you look
the more is uncovered
revealing delicate softness
covered with thick stalks
and some times thorns

We grow hardness without
to protect the vulnerability within

The flower dies all too soon
but in the spring
a new bud will form on a sturdy stalk
a new beauty yet to blossom
and share its God-given splendour
with the world.


Sister you frighten me,
entering the gates to this garden,
I wanted to lock the door
and guard this garden I tended.
Oh Sister, your innocent eyes
knows not my passion
Hidden beneath the soil I tend.
You have brought a new fruit
to this garden,
To me, and I see this flower
to grown there.
Where I share my fruit.
Sister, you have brought me
far beyond where I ever believed to be,
Closer to the One
I have been striving to see, Allah
subhana wa ta allah.
Sister, you scare me too,
I let go of the darkness
in my soul, to open the gates to this garden.
Help me Sister, to see
The things that hinder me,
That keep me from being what I want to be.
Help me Sister,
To open the boundaries of this garden,
And tend to the fruit that growns there.
Let me open my heart,
Allah commands me,
Let me free myself from
the chains of emotion,
And fly to be closer to my Lord,
and to this garden.
Then Sister, take care of me,
When I lay down in time,
And tend to my garden where I lie.

Poem of Allah

red is my blood
as the dying sunset
green is my sorrow
like the fresh spring buds
blue is my spirit
as the ocean
pink is my eyes
from all the tears I cried
yellow is the fear
that sits in my stomach
black is the despair
I feel
white is the prayer of Allah
I say in my heart
and out loud
Allah most gracious most forgiven
protect me from harm
forgive me my sins lead me down the path of righteousness
bless this humble servant of
your devotion
she’s seeking
safety and needs your guidance
do not forsaken her in her time of need