Crying
Through the valley of pain,
I walk alone
Tears drop like rain,
All the way
Why did you leave me alone…?
I ran behind the God of death
Couldn’t find your lovely face
Where you,
My love…?
My heart pains so much,
So lost
I want to see you again,
My love
Never told you,
How much I love you
Loosing my breath,
I am falling
Through the hills,
Dark feilds
I couldn`t live alone
Silently she screams
Running from glowing hope
Sinking back into the mire
She allows to steal her soul.
She grasps the bedrails
Violently looking behind her
At the nothingness
She has birthed with her fear.
A memory attacks her
And her tears flow
At the absurdity of
Fleeing from happiness.
She dries her tears
And paints her smile
Conditions her laugh
And glances in the mirror.
No one hears her silent cries.
I weep my heart out
no one cares
slowly I have fallen
down into the gray blackness of
despair
anguishing for hours
can barely left my head
dragging myself through the days
I paste on a mask and hope none sees through
my pain is always bubbling up, just beneath;
never rising
I hide the tears and fears
depression slowly pulls me down
lower than the darkest hour
I cry out to Allah to give me relief from the never ending battle
I am bone weary how much longer must I fight against this losing battle
I have fought for years and nothing ever changes
the struggles of depression makes me forget how to smile or laugh
I feel like a big damp cold colorless fog holds onto me
I am alone, without a voice or vision
I have great sorrows and greater regret in all the missed tomorrow’s
Yesterday’s pasts repeat themselves with awful images running through my head
clouds blur my eyes and I don’t feel well,
my heart’s in anguish dark on the round my tears tumble down from above,
falling
on the ground there isn’t
a thousand new tears;
I have never seen such griefs
my heart has shattered
into a thousand tiny shards of sapphire blue diamond cloaked in ruby red stained tears shredded of all my life’s blissful dreams and the hopes of all the days,
Dark midnight blue of storms immense, in my own eyes
