venting in bipolar

Med check isn’t possible as I am in a foreign country that doesn’t recognize mental illness . Going to the grocery store here isn’t fun or very interactive I can barely communicate and going out in the sun here just makes me sneeze then get a runny nose ( here it is allergy season) go figure .
I am trying to start a routine I make myself get up at 8:30 am and interact with my in-laws they are nice and try and help they just do not understand bipolar and I have no idea how to find information in arabic about bipolar.
I am trying my best some days it is just one foot in front of the other hope I don’t fall down the dark hole into the quicksand called depression.