Void

Void, canceled, simply annulled.
Endlessly aching, unconcealed.
Life without you, cause without reason.
Touch without sense, time without season.
I face life now facing a cancerous sore,
A sordid parasite that eats at my core.
All that makes me whole, all I hold deep within,
Leaving me lifeless, or at least not living’.

A shallow face, anguished and marred.
An empty space, scaled and scarred.
Sweetly abiding to a cynical charade.
Secretly hiding ‘hind a fictitious facade.
Still, lost within this heart of glass,
This fragile and yet unfeeling mass.
Lies the remains of a love that glowed,
The gift to you I once bestowed.

But honor and pride now bereaved-
By your love for me so misconceived,
Ripped from my inner depths, impeding-
Mind and body and spirit, bleeding;
Now’s crushed to sand from thy ruthless hand,
A cold stare I just can’t understand.
I feel that somehow, somehow I’m dying,
At least my soul and all that’s underlying.

A simple void, is that what I’ve become?
The hollowed sphere on a pendulum.
Swinging back and forth, emotion to emotion,
Never once stopping, nor slowing the motion.
No reason, no answer, no justification.
The creation of a sterile imagination.
Just passing through time as time passes me.
Merely a nothing- nothing, merely, left to be.
Sightless and soundless, unseen and unheard.
Mindless and boundless, obscure and absurd.
All empathy lying ungraced, unemployed,
I live my life dying, unembraced, a void.

“…feel awkward in our skin”

“In one day, we’re presented with countless opportunities to feel bad about ourselves or to feel awkward in our skin:   caustic coworkers, professional rejection, that stranger who glares at us as we walk down the street for absolutely no reason at all.   Isolated, these moments seem to indicate that there’s something deeply wrong […]

https://clinpsychsite.wordpress.com/2016/02/22/feel-awkward-in-our-skin/

Boredom is deadly…

I’m starting to think that a lot of depression, for me anyway, is caused by boredom. Although routine is drummed into us as Bipolar patients it is tedious and therefore counter intuitive in a way… I crave adventure, I want new daily experiences and to meet new people regularly, I try distract myself with exercise, […]

http://bipolartohappiness.com/2016/02/10/boredom-is-deadly/

How to love someone who has depression

“How to love someone who has depression” – There are a lot of posts going around about how to love someone who has depression and the allowances you have to make; the understanding you have to show, the hardships you have to go through etc. I have read some wonderful posts about how to be […]

https://thesuitcasekiddealingwithabrokenhome.wordpress.com/2016/01/27/how-to-love-someone-who-has-depression/

Dear Mum, I’ve got depression…

Eavesdropping slightly and picking up on small bits of a conversation, I overheard a child a few days ago telling her parents that she felt anxious. Unfortunately I didn’t stick around long enough to hear what this little girl, no older than 7 years of age, was anxious about. I did however, hear her father […]

https://thesuitcasekiddealingwithabrokenhome.wordpress.com/2015/12/27/dear-mum-ive-got-depression/

5 Foods That Help Prevent Stress

Written By Gracie  Stress is so common and everyone will have experienced it at some point in their life, many experience it regularly. Research suggests that stress can make you tired, irritable and angry because of the toxins that are released into your bloodstream, it can also lead to weight gain by slowing your metabolism […]

https://squirrelsisters.wordpress.com/2015/06/23/5-foods-that-help-prevent-stress/