Got a juicer

As Salam alikum readers 

I got a juicer yesterday and started using it below is a juicing recipe I really like

2 stalks celery

1 piece of ginger about half inch long

1 zucchini 

3 handfuls of spinach and kale mix I used the baby kind

6 medium apples 

Wash everything then slice apples and zucchini 

Run through juicer add small amounts spinach and kale then apples , ginger , celery use the pusher to safely get everything juiced, once finished stir and then pour over ice and enjoy makes about 4 big glasses full.

Side note I place a bag over the end that catches the discarded pulp and skins from juicing easy clean up.

  

Should You Have Kids If You’re Depressed?

Should You Have Kids If You’re Depressed?“Were you frightened to have children with your history of suicidal depression?” a young woman asked me the other day. “Did you have to stop medication while you were pregnant?” In the last ten years writing about mental health issues, these two questions keep surfacing, especially among young women who dream of pushing a baby…
http://thereseborchard.com/2015/06/05/should-you-have-kids-if-youre-depressed-2/

Depression, Not Medication, Kills Creativity

Depression, Not Medication, Kills Creativity“My favorite escapes from depression are meds and writing,” says Diana Spechler in a New York Times opinion piece. “But I can’t do both at once.” Friends have been forwarding to me her columns in the “Going Off” series, which chronicles her attempt to wean off the medications she takes for depression, anxiety, and insomnia.…
http://thereseborchard.com/2015/05/29/depression-not-medication-kills-creativity/

Depression rant 

I dislike it when people say oh you’ll be depressed where ever you live , well that might be true because I have a mood disorder my brain is wired differently just because I get upset about a issue doesn’t mean it’s my mood I can be upset and feel without it affecting my current mood .

Belittling how I feel at the moment doesn’t help me it just frustrates and annoys me.

Telling me I can’t do something because I have bipolar or depression or whatever label you want to call it isn’t fair to me as a person 

Would you tell a person with a medical problem to stick it out without treatment? Or that living somewhere that makes them truly unhappy is healthy for them? 

I dislike having bipolar it is hard and exhausting , you never know when your mood will change sometimes it changes for no reason at all. Other times there are indicators that your mood is changing sometimes you never even see it at all.

The bored  can make you feel more depressed nobody understands this like I do.

 

  

 

How Depression Belittles Oneself 

Unfortunately, depression never goes away

Sometimes it seems toget better but other times it rears its cruel despair and drags you down into those dark, foggy distance with all the pain and despair crept into my dreams then engulfed me again.​ 

I can’t help that I suffer through years of it most people in my life belittle and mock me because of depression like it is my fault, I thought educating them would help them understand but all they  do is ignore me and disregard what I say and how I feel.

Do my feelings and wishes and plans not even matter?​ 

What is the point of it all?​ 

I suffer in silnce now noone cares 

I spend my nights silently crying till I cant cry anymore

I spend my days just trying to not cry in front of anyone 

I paste on  a mask of stoicism slipped from time to time.

  

Struggles of faith

I struggle daily in my faith I am not sure why?

I am struggling but I am

Some days I  find it very hard to get up and do my prayers why?

My limbs are heavy with fatigue

My bones ache

At night I don’t sleep, I just toss and turn cryings quietly into my pillow

My soul aches and I can’t seem to stop the pain

All I can do is say Bismillah 

Wait for the pain to pass

I would never wish this pain on anyone it is quietly wrenching it is  soul sucking

Why Allah   Do I have this struggle and fight for everything? 



Five day ,five photo challenge day one blast from the past

I didn’t grow up in a house, I grew up moving around in a bus ,

When I was a kid I never ask what time it was when I woke up I was asked where are we ? 

I have lived in 48 states , some states are friendlier than other states.

The bus we lived in was retrofitted with a stove, fridge ,kitchen table ,counter ,beds and the toilet, as well as storage places for clothes and other things ! Each thing had its  had its own place.

We could set up or breakdown camp in under 10 minutes.

Below is a picture of two of  the buses we  lived in.

  One has built has bedrooms built on top and the other is newly acquired.



Just pray

Why do you pray not pray? 

Do  you desire to go astray?

Why do you disobey and refused to pray?

What in this life do you have?

Nothing is here to stay!

The only  way to find peace to pray!

Do not be lost and lonely like stray,

Pray for strength

Pray for peace 

Pray five times a day

It’s the only way to find the path

And stay on the straight way

Pray when in doubt 

Pray went in trouble 

Pray when not in trouble

When worried, in sickness and in health

one must always pray 

It is the only way to keep the demons and devils  at bay 

Just pray night or day 

Just pray