I get a funny feeling,
It comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
Wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,
My Mom says it’s just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
No one will ever be able to see.
Some say I’m psycho,
Some say I’m just weird.
It’s like I’m a different person,
And the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
Followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
It will some day.
Dpressedmuslimah 
Asalaamu alaikum sister. I have just stumbled across your blog from a link on Nimmi Afzal’s Adorable Life blog. I was initially shocked by your blog name and then most saddened as I have a quick look around and find you unhappy in most of your posts. InshaAllah you are able to find some enjoyment from day to day activities and will feel able to post something uplifting and inspiring soon. Thinking of you.
Wa Alikum Salam sister
I write my feelings down so they don’t stay bottled up , I haven’t found any medications that help me with my bipolar depression, I do pray and read Quran, depression just follows me where I go
Do you take ‘regular’ medication for your bipolar? There are some very good ones which if taken regularly do control symptoms very well. Do you have someone you can talk to on a frequent basis (someone neutral) to explain your feelings to and help you work through them?
It’s medication resident and I don’t really have anyone I can talk to
Sorry, I don’t understand ‘medication resident’? You don’t have anyone you can talk to? Do you have a local mosque you could go to – maybe they run some quran classes and you could meet some new sisters who you could eventually talk to?
None of the medications work , no masjid near me
Can you email me so we can chat properly inshaAllah: Laurena@lifediethealth.com 🙂
You are not alone.