loving kindness never ends
but when affection isn’t givin from the heart
resentment creeps in blinding the sparks of light
crushing me inside out,
to pieces, words and thoughts go unspoken sympathy between lovers leave nothing but platitudes of paranoid unrequited feelings?
drowning sorrows in tears of grief
Dpressedmuslimah 
I also struggle with depression, I have done for 18 years of my life. High anxiety and Depression follow my every step and dictate to me like hard task masters constantly. InshaAllah we will find our way free of this in time.