Bipolar anguish

Falling 

down my cheeks are big fat tears 

All the anguish within my heart, 

is leaking from my eyes .

i  Cried despairing my emotions are plain 

to see 

Yet they are not even acknowledged 

My moods, are elicited, mess of indecision and anxiety concealed 

by a single  mask of indifference, 

No one seems to care, 

or take the  time to know me, 

i am adrift in an ocean of fears 

battling with tides and currents 

I have always been fiercely stricken with this affliction 

Doctors have given it labels 

But it is not so neatly labeled and packaged 

My mental health 

is not some random label 

No pills have helped me

Talking about it wont make it go away

Bipolar is here to stay 

please understand having a mental illness 

Is not fun 

It isn’t cool 

And no one understands me  and the personal hell

I have endured all the adversity and stigma of it

Yet I wake and fight fercely to make my way 

through the long darkness 

that is thrust 

upon me 

I pray for strength 

and promise to personally forgive all whom betray,

  

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