Struggles of faith

I struggle daily in my faith I am not sure why?

I am struggling but I am

Some days I  find it very hard to get up and do my prayers why?

My limbs are heavy with fatigue

My bones ache

At night I don’t sleep, I just toss and turn cryings quietly into my pillow

My soul aches and I can’t seem to stop the pain

All I can do is say Bismillah 

Wait for the pain to pass

I would never wish this pain on anyone it is quietly wrenching it is  soul sucking

Why Allah   Do I have this struggle and fight for everything?