how I have been feeling

I haven’t been blogging or even writting for that matter to be completely honest I have been struggling with the depression .

Nothing helps it I have tried medications , excise , Prayer keeping busy but it just sneaks up and pounces on me some days are better than others but as of late I have been really feeling just blah and pain actualy physical pain not sure as to why I feel this way nothing has really changed it is like carrying around a big bag of rocks it is heavy and hurts but I can’t seem to lose the rocks , I can’t really sleep and when I do sleep I have weird and disjointed dreams I feel disconnected from life and have no appeite for food it is to the point that I have to force myself to eat food .

No one in my family understands how I feel , I feel alone and isolated even when I am surrounded by people I feel like I am in a bubble and cannot connect depression is just exhausting I try and escape by watching old reruns of tv shows . I want to feel something other than sad , I have no goals or dreams anymore all I do is exist depression just hurts but I am the only one who feels itOLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

2 thoughts on “how I have been feeling

  1. May Allah remove your burdens, pains and rocks… Remember every day how much Allah loves you, remember the reward for patience is Jannah and remember this world wont last forever…. Read copious amounts of Qur’an, it truly heals the heart ❤ insha Allah Aameen

  2. Assalamu Alaikum sister…

    Masha’Allah may Allah SWT reward you and grant you quick recovery. I myself suffer from this terrible illness. Subhanallah I can feel what your going through. I have been on medication for 4 years and try to get through everyday. If you need someone to talk to I am here. May Allah SWT grant you ease. Ameen.

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