Talking to my friend who also suffers from depression :
(She refers to her depression as demons )
Does anyone else have trouble with their demons of depression constantly bombarding them with negative thoughts
when the shame demons of “you should be more grateful” starting bugging me. My subconscious (or unconscious) is still filled with deep sadness…
(Me in reply) I totally understand every word you’ve said! I have managed to learn to FAKE IT, but yes, the depression is like an albatross around my neck. It NEVER goes away.
I have taken a plunge from my everyday depression into deep dark depression and there doesn’t seem to even be any reason to it , still struggling with sleep like always sleep just eludes me the harder I try to get good sleep the less sleep I actually get.
(My friend talking )I think your philosophy is accurate. Not crazy thoughts at all! I, too, am a firm believer in the necessity of helping others and being open for others to help us. We are all on separate paths on basically the same journey. Sometimes we cross paths with someone, sometimes we walk together for a while, and sometimes we walk together for a lifetime before one departs. We give grace, peace, compassion and empathy to one another and that is not depressing at all! But if we are feeling depressed or anxious or hopeless or “crazy” we can allow someone to be the soothing, healing balm. It takes a willingness to allow the crack so the light can come in. I appreciate your well-wishes! However, I’ll probably fall down in the tunnel a time or three this year, but you know what? My TRIBE will be there to help me up, dust me off, listen, give encouragement and advice. Thank you for this thought-provoking post! (((((Hugs)))))
(Me in reply) As I have struggled with depression, this past year I have had a crazy thought, okay more than one!
I feel like I have been in a tunnel and there is no light at the end of it. What if I this is my “cross to bear”? Maybe part of the reason I am here on this earth is to be company for the other darkness dwellers in the world? Somehow this gives me a sense of peace. That may change in a few minutes of course Some days I am the company helping others and some days others are the company helping me, and some days we fall, but some days we make it down the tunnel a little further with no bruises. I hope you all have a bruise free year! The Shortest Distance between a Problem and it’s Solution is the Distance between your Knees and the Floor. The one who Kneels to Allah (Azzwajal) can Stand Up to Anything.