pain and depression

I haven’t felt well in months my teeth hurt so much it causes migraine like pain yet the medication doesn’t touch the pain .

When in pain I withdraw and hideaway I don’t want to be around people and I don’t want to write , the pain makes it impossible to sleep so I distract myself with pointless watching of tv shows

Ramadan Kareem – Beware of Some Common Mistakes

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Ramadan Kareem

Some Common Mistakes in Ramadan. Lets Strive Not to Repeat the Same

1 : Taking Ramadan as a ritual

For many of us Ramadan has lost its spirituality and has become more of a ritual than a form of Ibaadah. We fast from morning to night like a zombie just because everyone around us is fasting too. We forget that its a time to purify our hearts and our souls from all evil….we forget to make dua, forget to beseech Allaah to forgive us and ask Him to save us from the Fire. Sure we stay away from food and drink but that’s about all.

Although the Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said: “‘Jibreel said to me, May Allaah rub his nose in the dust, that person to who Ramadan comes and his sins are not forgiven, and I said, Ameen.

Then he said, May Allaah rub…

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Practical Way To Benefit From Ramadhaan

The Way of the Salaf us-Saalih

In the Name of Allah, the Most Beneficient, the Most Merciful

May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him, his Companions and his family members and all those who follow them until the Last Day.

The following post is based on the notes from the lecture of Br. Mustafa George (Biography of Br. Mustafa George) that he gave Saturday Aug. 16th at Masjid Rahmah, Newark NJ. The topic of the lecture was “How to Benefit from Ramadhaan Practically”

Practically benefitting from Ramadhaan should be divided into 2 Categories:

Goals and Preparations

Each person should make goals that he wants to achieve in the month of Ramadhaan. The following are just examples and they should be modified according to the person’s abilities and circumstances.

Here are some examples:

1) I want to finish the Qur’aan from cover to cover 1 time, or…

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[Printable] Dunya/Akhira Du’aa List

Ramadhan Planner

Mustafa George advises that, “For the last 10 nights of Ramadhaan, its a good idea to make a list of things that you want in the dunya and in the Next life. And then ask Allah for those things. Indeed, He gives without any measures” [Practical Way to Benefit from Ramadhaan].

Free free to print one of these blank lists. Encourage children to use a list also.


For Children. Color in the words and decorate as they like:

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bipolar rambings

I  am me and for that shall be…
I have a mental illness. In itself, this disease is a very isolating disease. But – I am here to lay some knowledge on ya
Just like that, humans also take time to grow. An example would be going to school. One does not become qualified overnight – it takes years!!! Everything takes time, consistency, and effort. Those who take the short-cut, do not have depth. Time and effort are key to success (ehem, a lot of time).

Growing up, I felt so different, so weird,I just couldn’t see my way out of the fog that became my life. It felt unbearable. It was like being trapped inside a paper bag with no escape.
But, instead of retreating, the mood only took a stronger hold. Interactions were stiff and forced or overly emotional and fretted over later.
Peel back the layers of pretense and deceit and reveal the absolute truth
Motherhood, what a blessing. And mental illness, what a prison. And yet, some days, I mistake motherhood for the prison. I love my children, to a debilitating degree. No one could have ever prepared me for what being a mother does to your heart. I was nineteen  when I had my first child. I can say motherhood was wonderful yet stressful not to mention that sleep deviation  and depression didn’t help I was undiagnosed as bipolar for all of my teenage years and adult life I was misdiagnosed more times than I can count guess you can say I got really good at wearing a mask and pretending that’s how I see myself in life always pretending and hiding my true self no one knows the pain I am in and the few times I have expressed it it has fell upon deaf ears or the people I trusted betray me so I hide the pain and suffering sometimes it breaks through and people catch a glimpses .
Antidepressants and mod stabilizers do not work for me either I am allergic or have some weird reaction to the medications so I just struggle along as best as I can .

In depression

Hello darkness in thee I am bound, You are all around crowding out all the light . I fight with all my might yet you steal all the delight. Depression and darkness are close friends ,where one is the other isn’t far behind. I feel like crying , I feel sad and tired and I have no reason to I get enough sleep well most people think I do. What they don’t know is I spend most of the night tossing and turning trying to shut my brain off yes my brain is broken just racing and intrusive thoughts it is exhausting .

I have all these ideas and words swirling around but when I try and express them they get all jumbled up confused like word salad or word vomit none of it makes much sense . I feel like I am adrift in a bubble where all I get is passing touches never much more than that no one can reach me this is what it feels like to live with depression . Depression hurts from the inside out it is a creeping slow silent pain and by the time you realize it it’s already hit you hard and sucked out all the bright all that is left is the dark and gloom along with doubt and sorrow and wondering if there will be a tomorrow.

The Night of Opportunity


بسم الله

She walks quietly to her kitchen and pulls out the coffee maker. As the rich smell of caffeine confuses the usual night-time smells, she pulls out her prayer carpet and her expensive perfume. The night awaits her and she is seeking forgiveness and the pleasure of her Lord.

It is Nusf Shaban.

An argument on Facebook, and comments on Twitter run through her mind and she shakes her head and thinks of Aisha (RA), who, when she asked the Prophet (SAW) of his long prostration (indeed she had feared the worst!), was told, “Do you know what night this is?”…” This is the night of Mid-Sha’ban. God looks at His servants on the night of Mid-Shaban and forgives those seeking forgiveness, has mercy on those seeking mercy, and leaves the bearers of grudges as they are.” [Bayhaqi]

She thinks of Ali (RA) who tells us that the Prophet…

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What is Ruqyah and How to Perform it

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This is a small collection questions and answers on ruqyah taken from Ahaadeeth were added (in the footnotes) and some spacing and headings were added as well.

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What is Ruqyah and how to perform it

A little more on ruqyah here:

What is Ruqyah

Taken from:

Q: In the book Fath Al-Bary, it is mentioned that Ruqyah (recitation for healing or protection) has very good effects. Please explain Ruqyah and its good effects? May Allah reward you.

A: Ruqyah means reciting Qur’an and saying supplications reported from the Prophet (peace be upon him) over the sick seeking to be cured; in addition to other good and lawful supplications.

It has very good curing effects. The Prophet (peace be upon him) used to recite over the sick and so did the Sahabah (Companions of the Prophet). Performing Ruqyah and supplicating for a…

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