I am me and for that shall be…
I have a mental illness. In itself, this disease is a very isolating disease. But – I am here to lay some knowledge on ya
Just like that, humans also take time to grow. An example would be going to school. One does not become qualified overnight – it takes years!!! Everything takes time, consistency, and effort. Those who take the short-cut, do not have depth. Time and effort are key to success (ehem, a lot of time).
Growing up, I felt so different, so weird,I just couldn’t see my way out of the fog that became my life. It felt unbearable. It was like being trapped inside a paper bag with no escape.
But, instead of retreating, the mood only took a stronger hold. Interactions were stiff and forced or overly emotional and fretted over later.
Peel back the layers of pretense and deceit and reveal the absolute truth
Motherhood, what a blessing. And mental illness, what a prison. And yet, some days, I mistake motherhood for the prison. I love my children, to a debilitating degree. No one could have ever prepared me for what being a mother does to your heart. I was nineteen when I had my first child. I can say motherhood was wonderful yet stressful not to mention that sleep deviation and depression didn’t help I was undiagnosed as bipolar for all of my teenage years and adult life I was misdiagnosed more times than I can count guess you can say I got really good at wearing a mask and pretending that’s how I see myself in life always pretending and hiding my true self no one knows the pain I am in and the few times I have expressed it it has fell upon deaf ears or the people I trusted betray me so I hide the pain and suffering sometimes it breaks through and people catch a glimpses .
Antidepressants and mod stabilizers do not work for me either I am allergic or have some weird reaction to the medications so I just struggle along as best as I can .