I feel like crap , I have been sick since I have arrived with a sore throat stuffy nose then runny nose sore ears and been couching up gunk that’s yellow and my body aches it feels like I have a 40 pound weigh sitting on my chest I can’t sleep at night and my whole body aches I am home sick and bored I want to go home but I am not able to so here I stay in a country where I am barely understood and feel like a idiot I can’t pronounce most of the words here my children know more arabic than I do how embarrassing is that ? My monthly friend is MIA and I do not sleep at night I watch dumb reruns I have seen to many times and my mood changes so often it’s like being on a mental roll coaster ride and I hate roll coasters they just leave you feeling sick and nauseated as well as exhausted Bipolar depression sucks and it sucks 1000 times more in a strange land since I’ve been here I haven’t been able to cook anything. Everything here is on super slow motion I mean breakfast doesn’t get served till 10 /1030 am and lunch is like 230/300 pm then dinner is like 10 10; 30 pm , when my husband calls he doesn’t listen to me he talks with everyone else then he reads the internet and pretends to listen.
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The Arabic word for repentance is Taubah which translated literally means ‘to return’. Repentance means to leave what Allaah has prohibited and to return to what he has commanded.
[Surah At-Tahrim Ayah: 8]
[Surah Al-Qasas Ayah:67]
wa ana alaa ‘ahdika wa wa’dika mastata’tu,
a’udhu Bika min sharri ma sana’tu, abuu’u Laka Bini’matika ‘alayya,
wa abuu’u bidhanbii, faghfirlii fa’innahu la yaghfiru Adh-dhanbu illa Anta.’
‘If somebody recites it during the day with firm faith in it, and dies on the same day before the evening, he will be from the people of Paradise; and if somebody recites it at night with firm faith in it, and dies before the morning, he will be from the people of the Paradise.’”
The word Tawbah (Repentance) in Arabic literally means ‘to return’. In an Islamic context, it refers to the act of leaving what Allah has prohibited and returning to what He has commanded. The subject of repentance is one which concerns all people who believe in Allah, and is central to Islamic belief as well.
It is mentioned in the Qur’an
“… and turn you all together in repentance to Allah O believers, that you may be successful”
“Surely Allah loves those who turn unto him in repentance and loves those who purify themselves.”
Surah al-Baqarah (2:222)
Feelings of remorse and guilt are natural reflections of sinning, if the person who has sinned has a conscious which is alive.
After committing a sin, a person who fears Allah and give high respect to Him would feel a sense of hopeless and despair thinking, “How will Allah forgive me for this sin?” However, it is noteworthy that despairing of Allah’s mercy is in itself one of the major sins in Islam for Allah is ever merciful, ever forgiving.
As He says in the Qur’an:
“Tell them (oh Muhammad): ‘My (Allah’s) Servants, who have committed excesses against themselves, do not be in despair in the mercy of Allah – surely, Allah forgives all sins. Verily Allah is the Most Forgiving, the Most Merciful
Surah Az-Zumar (9:53)
In another verses, Allah says:
“Except for those who repent after that and do righteous deeds. Verily, Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful”.
“He forgave them (accepted their repentance), that they might beg for His pardon [repent (unto Him)] Verily, Allah is the One Who forgives and accepts repentance, Most Merciful”.
Islam fully understands the temptations that come in the way of everyone of us, and that which some of us might go for. Only through repentance, that one can wipe out those sins and past misdeeds and gradually get freed from the clutches of the ego.
Repentance is the most noble and beloved form of obedience in the eyes of Allah the All Mighty. He loves those who repent. Repentance has a status that no other form of worship has. This is why Allah is extremely happy when a servant repents just as a traveler is happy when he finds his lost mount in the desert.
Feeling Allah’s satisfaction has its great impact on the heart of the one repenting. Hence, the repenting person reaches the status of being amongst the beloved through his repentance.
Moreover, repentance brings about humbleness and a sense of helplessness to the only Creator; Allah, and that is not easily acquired through other forms of worship.
Allah says in the Qur’an
“Except those who repent and believe, and do righteous deeds, for those, Allah will change their sins into good deeds, and Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”
This is a greatest glad tiding for those who repent and combine their repentance with deep faith and good deeds.
Repentance breeds good deeds, whilst sinning (without repentance) can cause deprivation of obedience altogether. It has been said that committing sins regularly will darken and harden the heart and make purifying it once again a difficult mission. It may even lead a person to reject Allah completely (Allah forbid) or lead him to commit a bigger sin. There is no recourse for a sinner except to ask Allah for forgiveness and to feel great regret for his actions.
Repentance is to repent from the heart, to train the heart into obedience and to make a firm resolution never to commit the sin again.
How to repent?
For repentance to be accepted by Allah, one should go through these four stages:
1- Stop the sin.
2- Regretting deeply and truly for the sin you committed.
3- Return to Allah for forgiveness.
4- Strong intention never to return to that same sin again.
What would help in fulfilling the above four stages?
The repenting person should remember three facts:
1. The grave consequence of sins.
2. The painful punishment for sins and
3. How week a person is when committing such sins.
Prophet Muhammad (Sallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam) said, “Every son of Adam is a sinner, and the best of sinners are those who turn (to Allah) in repentance.”
(Mishkatul-Masabih, Vol. 3, p. 360)
Allah says in the Qur’an:
“Those (are the true believers) who, when they commit an evil deed, or wrong their souls, remember Allah, and seek forgiveness for their sins and none can forgive sins but Allah – And do not persist in what (wrong) they have done, while they know..
We may tire committing sin but Allah does not tire forgiving us.
O’ slave of Allah! Allah has opened the door of repentance, so why should you not enter?
“Repentance has a door whose span is the distance between East and West,” says a hadith (and in another version, its span is the distance traveled in 70 years). “It will not be closed until the sun rises from the west.” Listen to the call of Allah, “O’ my slaves! You sin morning and evening and I forgive all your sins. So call on Me, I’ll forgive you all your sins
For anyone who ever thought of growing a full fist-length beard, observing proper hijab and/or niqab, or dressing in an Islamic manner but have not been able to do so, this is a must read for you. Insha Allah, it may serve to be a source of inspiration for those who wish to pursue Islamic education. But most importantly, it serves to be a reminder for me and Insha Allah, a means of earning Allah’s pleasure by getting people to practice the Deen in its entirety.
Unfortunately, just before you take your first step on the righteous journey to pursue your Deen, your nafs and shaytaan be it your own shaytaan or people around you, even the ones who deeply care for you, will give you awful “advice” and sincere “nasihah”. Perhaps it may not be because they have evil intentions. It is because they do not understand the big picture—what your Deen means to you. They do not understand that, to you, the reward is worth the risk. In other words, a life of hell in this world or a jail as the hadith says is worth more than a temporal “paradise” for an unknown amount of torment the actual hellfire.
“…Our Lord, and make us Muslims (submitting) to You and from our descendants a Muslim nation (in submission) to You. And show us our rites and turn unto us (in Mercy). Indeed, You are the Accepting of repentance, the Merciful.” [al-Baqarah: 128]
“And (He also turned to) the three who were left behind (and regretted their error) to the point that the earth closed in on them in spite of its vastness and their souls confined them and they were certain that there is no refuge from Allah except in Him. Then He turned to them (taaba `alayhim) so they could repent (li-yatubu). Indeed, Allah is the Accepting of repentance, the Merciful.” [al-Tawbah: 118]…He first turned to them, so that they could turn to Him in repentance. Subhan’Allah, how merciful is Allah, and how arrogant we can be if we think that our repenting was from our own accord – no, it’s all from Allah `azza wa jall. So let’s learn a lesson from Ibrahim, the khalil (close friend) of Allah, and beg Allah to always turn to us, so that we can keep turning to Him.
- Pray salah (on time). If you aren’t praying salah, starting to pray five times is the most beneficial routine. If you are praying, upgrade to praying right at the time of the adhan as this is the most beloved deed to Allah (swt). You will benefit immediately because your time afterward will, in shaa Allah (swt), be filled with baraka. Each minute we delay salah is one minute closer to missing salah. Bonus: when al-Fajr is included in this effort then we would be awake to implement other prophetic routines, like reading Quran and saying dua.
- Fast on Mondays and Thursdays. Some of us worry about fasting the long days of Ramadhan that are drawing near. Yet a person who fasts on Mondays and Thursdays won’t find the transition into Ramadan nearly as hard – because they’ve already worked their way up to fasting those long days a little at a time. That person also reaps the benefits of fasting all year long.
- Read the Quran Daily. Reading just one ayah a day, or memorizing one word a day, can accumulate to include the whole Quran over time! Interaction with the Quran on a daily basis is an essential lifeline to Allah (swt).
- Make wudhu before sleeping. It only takes a minute or two to do this simple and beautiful Sunnah.
- Make daily dua and dhikr of the Prophet (saws). By establishing a practice of saying the things that the Prophet (saws) said each day, we can draw nearer to him (saws) and also invite more peace and blessings into our lives.
- Shift your focus.
Believe me, you will get lost in the counting of those blessings even if you’re a math expert!And then, when you genuinely appreciate the blessings you enjoy and, in turn, appreciate how Merciful He, your Lord, has always been to you, He will do as promised inshaAllah (God willing); He will increase you in various ways in life. Trust me, with a positive and grateful mindset, you will feel His barakah(blessing) in your life constantly and that will make you a much happier human being. You will enjoy the days and nights of this fleeting life that doesn’t want to slow down! You will kick away depression from your life and make way for activism and energy!And most importantly, you will be able to remember your Lord consistently and His consciousness will become ingrained in your lifestyle inshaAllah. What a wonderful way to worship the One to whom we owe everything!But then you might be thinking “how” exactly do I show this gratitude? Is it just repeating “thank you God” every time I buy a Louis Vuitton bag?That too and maybe something more.The best way to be grateful for Allah’s favors is to use them for things that make Him happy.So you’re good in accounting? Help someone to do their homework. You love writing? Use your beautiful words to inspire people to Allah’s deen (religion). Maybe Allah blessed you with wealth so you can buy all the good stuff alhamdulilLah. Why not buy something nice and gift it to a poor person once in a while? And you can be as creative as you want! The list is endless. But you get the point inshaAllah.Come on fellas. It’s time to be positive. It’s time to be grateful. It’s time to act.And always remember this motto no matter what you go through in life:“An attitude of gratitude is what is truly needed!” – Ustadh Nouman Ali KhanStay blessed.
- Pay attention to the wonderful things you have, as opposed to what you don’t have.
Then indeed with hardship comes ease. Indeed with hardship comes ease. (Quran 94:5-6)
“There is no worthy of worship except Allah, the Ever Forbearing, the Most Great. There is none worthy of worship except Allah, the Lord of the Tremendous Throne. There is none worthy of worship One Who sustains and protects all that exists, there is none worthy of worship except You, and by Your Mercy do we seek Your aid.”
“So be patient, with a good patience…” (Qur’an 70:5)
“O’ you who believe! Seek help in patience and the Prayer.” (Qur’an 2:153)
“Perhaps Allah may bring victory or a decision according to His Will.” (Qur’an 5:52)
Prophet Ibrahim (‘alayhissalam) did not feel its heat because of the help he received from Allah. “We (Allah) said : O’ fire! Be you coolness and safety for Ibrahim.” (Qur’an 21:69)
The sea would not drown Prophet Moses (‘alayhissalaam) because he uttered in confident, strong and truthful manner: “Nay verily! With me is my Lord, He will guide me.” (Qur’an 26:62)
The Prophet (pbuh) said, “Whoever Allah wishes good for, He inflicts him (with hardship).” [Bukhari]
For those who are afflicted with disaster, glad tidings await them: so remain patient and happy with your Lord. “He cannot be questioned as to what He does, while they will be questioned.” (Qur’an 21:23)
“Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs. So they returned with Grace and Bounty from Allah. No harm touched them; and they followed the good Pleasure of Allah. And Allah is the owner of Great Bounty.” (Qur’an 3:173-174)
“And put your trust in Allah if you are believers indeed…” (Qur’an 5:23)
“O you who believe! Seek help in patience and the prayer…” (Qur’an 2:153)
“So do not become weak, nor be sad…” (Qur’an 3:139)
“And grieve not over them, and be not distressed because of what they plot.” (Qur’an 16:127)
I have no aspirations Depression and despair sucked them away
I have no dreams, manic racing thoughts and isolation have stolen the
I have nothing but darkness and despair my mind is broken and I have no way to help it everything I have tried has failed , medications don’t work or stop working cause other problems or I am allergic to them . I am sick of people in the Muslim community telling me if you just pray more it will go away it is like telling a sick person that has a gashing cut more and the bleeding will stop if you just pray more , if someone has a cut there are steps to take to deal with the cut the first step is to apply pressure and get the bleeding under control then assess whether the cut needs stitches or just a bandage once that is done then you clean the wound and apply the stitches and then a bandage and give the person pain medication and help them recover well when one has a mental illness most people will just say snap out of it , everyone goes through periods of feeling bad what they don’t realize is that when one feels so bad and sad they can’t just snap out of it they don’t realize just how hard it is to get to get out of bed and just make it through the day some of us with mental illnesses get really good at masking the symptoms and our feelings because we are just to exhausted to deal with other peoples pity fear or disgust so we get good at playing poker faces or we develop what i call the I’m fine mask or the I’m ok just tired because the children kept me awake excuse what we don’t says is I’m not ok I didn’t sleep because I couldn’t turn off my brain I am having intrusive thoughts and when I do sleep I have weird dreams that seem more like forgotten memories from when I was a child but I can’t even put into words what the weird dream/memories are about because they scare the crap out of me and when I’ve talked about them I’ve been told it didn’t happen you are making it up it’s all in you head get over it the list just goes on and on.
So now I’ve reached the point that I have no dreams or aspirations I am just here simply because I just struggle through each day sometimes all I can do is struggle through the hour, minute or second no one understands how I feel and to be honest I don’t really know how to pray yes it’s embarrassing I know the motions and the Al Fatiha but that’s it there are a whole bunch of other things in between that I don’t know and no one has bothered to take the time to show me and teach me .
More than a few people have lectured me on why and blah blah but no one shows me or encourages me to start they just say you do it x amount of time blah blah blah , you should go to more lectures, events , but no one ever says hey lets get together and pray or hey how are you doing with your prayers do you need any help can I answer any questions here’s a great website for information, hey lets have tea and just talk everyone is to busy in their own little worlds to reach out and help the internet is both a good and bad thing good for finding information and bad for further isolating people now people spend endless hours on social networking sites gabbing about stupid stuff and posting dumb pictures whatever happened to planning and getting together just for the sake of Allah and to help your fellow human?